Innocuous Perception 1

~ Note: Lyric was taken from BSB ~

by Jaja & Luv Angel

Dear Hana,

Beautiful things happen on rare occasion. Falling in love with you is one of it and I have no doubt about it… not ever! Every single day we’ve spent together was heaven to me. You’ve given me something I’ve never had before, a light to illumine my dim path. Accepted me as who I am and not for what I am. I’ve learned that the hard way. It all started when…

When visions around you,

Bring tears to your eyes,

A boy wearing loose attire, seated comfortably on a large sofa by the heater suddenly dropped his pen down on the brilliantly carved table ahead of him. A moan was heard and it wasn’t congenial at all. He pushed himself up and started trotting towards the bed.

“Shinichi, don’t leave me…don’t…leave..” Hana called out his lover ’s name in his nightmare. He was restless, tossing his head from one side of the bed to the other, whimpering inaudibly.

“Shhh… it’s alright. I’m not going anywhere.” He soothed the read headed boy. Held his lover’s sweaty palm in his much larger ones and squeezing it tenderly.

“Don’t…Don’t...leave..” He whimpered again.

Maki grasped Hana’s hand tighter, “I’m here, Hana kun.” He brushed back Hana’s tuft, which was slightly attached to his forehead due to perspiration. Hana ceased to mutter incoherent words. Promptly went back to sleep peacefully like before. Maki pulled up a discarded quilt to cover up Hana’s chest. He then grazed his fingers against the comforter.

‘Sun flower…’ Maki alternated between the quilt and the sleeping form of his lover and he then smiled at the resemblance. ‘MY, Sun flower…’

…One spring, I sauntered alone, feeling the need for seclusion after a week of uphill struggle. From a corner, I saw someone lying on a pile of dried foliage, dangled his feet so freely like as if lulling himself to sleep. He hummed softly amidst the deserted area, seemingly loud for such empty place. No one was there to disturb him and I too reluctant to break his evening stupor….

And all that surrounds you,

Are secrets and lies,

The red headed youth yawned and stretched languorously like a cat after waking up from his slumber. “Huh?” He was partially stunned by what awaited him. *eyes bugged out*

“Morning sleeping head!” Hana pouted and muttered a curse under his breath.

"Do you know how innocent you look when you sleep?" Maki regarded Hana for a few minutes, running his eyes up and down the read head's length in one smooth motion. "Reminds me of an Angel, so pure and untouched by the human dark instincts yet structurally correct." Maki's eyes once again slid down Hana's half-clad body. “Very" He raised his voice. "Structurally correct." He elevated his brows, which made the younger player, blushed slightly.

"Ahou..." The flushed read head restlessly switched side, trying to hide his bashful little smile. Hana rested his back against Maki's chest, feeling rather contented with his lover's appreciative remarked but wouldn't admit it. He silently played with the bed sheet, running the satin cover in between his fingers, loving the feel of it when it would sometimes slipped from his grasps.

…I was mesmerized by his sweet tenor. He could have been someone prominent in the performer’s world. Lurking isn’t the word coz’ I barely was. I was just leaning against a Sakura tree nearby, tilting my seemingly weary skull against its hard crust and allowed my body completely to lean upon it. His upper torso was shielded from my line of vision, making it hard for me to see from that point of view. If I were to inform my presence…where would the fun be?…

I Promise You,

Ohh ohhhhhhh

I'll be your strength,

Maki instinctively wrapped his arms around Hana's waist and snuggled closer behind his gorgeous companion, smirking into his koibito's soft hair. He tightened his hold, almost reluctant to let his precious koibito part from his grasp. The silence between the two wasn't at all oppressive, in fact it was almost natural, calming.

…The soft melody emanating from his Walkman, echoed by his own bewitching voice and accompanied by gushing sound of the wind is what I called natural. It fitted him just right. The song, the rhythm… So right that I find myself wondering what kind of a person he might be. At that moment, he’s an enigma to me…

I'll give you hope,

Keeping your faith when it's gone

"Shinichi...I..." somehow, he was hesitant to continue, but thinking further of the matter burdens his heart. "...will you promise me something?" Hana spoke, unsure of himself, the velvety fabric promptly forgotten.

"Depends" said Maki with a tiny gleam in his eyes. "First, you've got...."

Maki was cut short, as Hanamichi abruptly shifted to face him. There was seriousness in his voice, something alien of the red head, as he spoke "Look, I need you to listen to me, because this will be very important for us."

Sensing the seriousness in his lover's tone, Maki pushed his jokes aside. Suddenly, he felt that what Hana was going to say would forever change them. "Alright..."

…Will he be tall and lanky, like I had imaged him to be? Or will he have smooth skin and soft, silky hair like what my dream predicted these past few days? Just under the evening sky could I find solace in this apparently isolated area, from a nameless and faceless stranger… So utterly absurd, I’m beginning to reflect that this is somewhat  ‘love at first heed’… the heart did a double split like it shouldn’t have, the mind transporting an ultra-strong wave intravenously to each part of my body. Weren’t’ that enough to confirm qualms?

The one you should call,

Is standing here all alone...

Hana heaved in a deep breath. "I want you to promise me that you'll find someone else, someone better than me..."

"Shh..." Maki brushed his thumb against Hana's dry lips, preventing him from going any further. He uttered barely audible words, which penetrate Hanamichi's ears softly "Nothing will ever part us."

Hana tried to speak, and out of fear, Maki quickly pressed his lips against his lover's, and all words were lost. They were engulfed in a passionate kiss, and Hana couldn't resist but to partake in the sheer indulgence, his heart crying silently.

…The next time we met was under a different roof. Unpleasantly different… Living at the top floor of a 30 stages dwelling is a torture but being stuck in an elevator for the entire day was even worse. Who wants to climb the staircase up till the top? That’s suicide. There were just the two of us. Shouted till our throats gone dried but no one was there…

And I will take You in my arms,

And hold you right where you belong,

Till the day my life is through…

..................................

The curtains of night had finally been hauled to make way for the emerging sun. Hanamichi opened his groggy eyes, and instantly he shielded his vision from the blinding morning sunlight. He trailed his eyes to the other side of the bed, and found out that it had been abandoned. Instantly, he propped himself up. The feeling of uneasiness filled his heart. Where is he....?

…You were trashing about the whole time, cursing words you shouldn’t have. I swear the elevator was about to crash earthward if I hadn’t been there to pacify you. Eventually reached your senses and struggled no more. Clung to me so tightly, I could feel your warmth crept into my vein. Something snapped, everything faltered and it suddenly made sense. That was when it happened, you sang! Sang those lovely tunes…

This I promise you

This I promise you

I've loved you forever,

In lifetimes before

As he was lost in thoughts, the door opened and the figure that had always been plaguing his heart appeared, juggling in his hands a tray of what seemed to be...food? Hanamichi was unable to contain his surprise as his eyes doubled it size, and he was gawking slightly. 

"You made breakfast?" His expression was aghast. Maki can cook? 

Maki chuckled upon seeing the disbelieving look on Hanamichi's face. "Although my father is not a chef, unlike Uozumi's, I'm still considered fair in cooking, and you'll be surprise at it...."

Hanamichi cleared the pillows for the tray. "We'll see." he said with a devilish smile. The tray was laid down, and Maki sat beside Hana. The latter spooned omelet and gingerly taste the substance. A startled look replaces the cynical expression on his face, and he uttered slowly. 

"Damn, this is good...."

Maki smiled at his sincere but somewhat unjust compliments. Heck, he never thought his cooking could be that good, but then again.....Suddenly, he scratch his head. Wait a sec; I myself have not taste it!! He glanced at the ravenous beast beside him, and starts to taste some of his own cooking too. His eyes bulged, and his always-sensuous mouth formed into an incredibly comical o shape. Soon, both of them were indulged in a feeding frenzy.

… Our first lip lock was heavenly, a silky soft grazing of skin against skin. Though I did initiate the first touch, I dare not pressure you, just the need to console your apprehensive heart. To let you know that everything’s going to be all better and to let you see that you’re not alone. You didn’t respond which wasn’t a surprise. Utterly speechless that for a moment, you even forgot to breath….

And I promise you never...

Will you hurt anymore,  

.........................................

Maki wiped his mouth clean with a crisp napkin. He looked at his bulging stomach, and sighed. I've got to stop eating like this, or this excess baggage will forever taunt me.... well, being with Hanamichi is ain't much help anyway. His eyes lingered the room, and rested itself on the robe-clad figure, standing muted by the large window. He sensed something was amiss, judging from the way he fingered his chin in that dreamy manner of his.

As if sensing his eyes on him, Hanamichi turned around. "Shinichi?" The way he said it brought a sense of unsubdued feelings in his heart. No Hanamichi......

…You gazed into my eyes with your mouth slightly parted. Your brown eyes shimmered slightly, sparkled brightly before my own, and transported its innocence into my being. Suddenly the world seemed like a roller coaster to me, quaking wildly beneath my feet. Music died, actions spoke…and thus began love so true…

I give you my word,

I give you my heart,

"You've promised me, and I won't allow you to retract it." His statement was rather firm, and his masculine and finely sculptured jaw tightens as he anticipates an answer from Maki.

Maki kept quiet. He knew the matter had long been oppressed in Hanamichi's heart. They had agreed not to even mention about it. But today, he had broken the promise.

"Sa...say something...." Hanamichi stuttered. He paced his way nearing the edge of the bed.

… From that day on, we were glued. The perfect duo they would say and I did nothing to deny coz’ it’s gospel for all I know. A day without your smile is like the night itself. I felt like a blind bard fumbling for his felt tip, albeit the darn thing was only inches ahead of him. How I wish there was a special way for me to decipher and let you see what my heart truly spoke and not just some mumbo jumbo joke…

This is a battle we've won

And with this vow,

Forever has now begun...

~ to be continue ~

chapter 2

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